My boyfriend was deployed this past Saturday for 8 months. Needless to say it’s been horribly painful. Although the half marathon on Sunday helped quite a bit, each day apart has felt worse, not better. I was originally planning to take a week off from running following the race. I figured I needed the rest especially since I ran a long distance without training.
I decided to hit the gym today and just do some upper body weights and maybe a little bit of light walking or bike. I did my weights and headed to the treadmill for a slow walk. I was feeling especially bad emotionally today. This is the longest we’ve gone without connecting with each other and it’s likely to be another few weeks before I first hear from him. It was hitting me hard, and I really felt discouraged.
I walked slowly for about a quarter mile. The emotions started tugging harder and harder at my heart, and I found myself upping the speed on the treadmill. At first I just thought I’d do a light jog, but I found the faster I went, the better I felt. I ended up doing four quarter mile sprints in a row at 6.0 – 6.5mph. It was such an incredible release. I was fighting back the tears as I ran, but it felt so good.
I could only do four sprints as my legs were still pretty tired from Sunday’s race, but it was an incredible cure for today’s serious emotional blues. I felt such a high and sense of release when I was done. I felt hopeful about my relationship and getting through the next 8 months.
I think running is going to be my salvation during his deployment. So far, in the past five days, it has been my only true source of happiness and relief from this agonizing separation. I really think it is a cure for anything, the endorphins it produces are so powerful.
If someone told me years ago I’d use running to heal emotional pain, I would have laughed and probably popped a Prozac. But now I know it will help me get through this. Although now I’m feeling sad again, I know I can just hop back on the treadmill and let it all out tomorrow. And with each passing day, the pain will get easier and then will come the joyous day that he returns. Until then, I’ll be clocking in the miles.
Okay so I lost a block of about 6 weeks of recording my runs. I did them, though they short distances of 3 – 5 miles. Between my vacation and helping my folks move, I just didn’t have time to record them all. So now I’m posting the running data of last week and this week. Back on track of keeping schedule, though the day numbers really aren’t accurate!
Day 68: Treadmill, speed sprint training, upper body weights, 2.0 miles in 26 min
Day 69: Treadmill, 2.10 miles of speed sprints in 27 min plus upper body weights
Day 70: Greenway Trail, 8 miles in 1:54:14
Day 71: Treadmill, 3.0 miles speed sprints, 37:17 plus upper body weights
Day 72: Treadmill, 3.0 miles speed sprints, 37:20, plus upper body weights
Day 73: Full upper and lower body strength training
Day 74: Greenway Trail, 13 miles in 3:05:18
I had a good training day yesterday. I was forced to do the treadmill since our high temperature only reached 8 degrees yesterday, and it was snowing. Normally I can’t endure super long on the treadmill. I get really bored and annoyed with the monotony.
Yesterday, however, I broke through my wall at minute 15 and managed to run 45 minutes for a total of 3.32 miles. This included a 5 minute walking warm-up and 5 minute walking cool down. I ran at 5.0mph for 4 minutes and walked at 3.5 mph for 1 minute.
It felt great. I was on such a running high when it was over. I felt fantastic (and hungry) all evening.
It was about 20 degrees outside yesterday morning when it was time for me to go to the Y. I didn’t want to go. I wanted to go and take a hot shower to warm up. But, I knew I needed it so I went.
I did my upper body weights and some squats and then hit the treadmill for a run. I figured I’d do around 2 miles and call it quits. The run started to feel so good yesterday with all the stress I’ve been under, I just kept going. I knew if I stopped the workout would be over and the stress would come back. So I kept going. I ended up doing a full 5K on the treadmill and I smashed my PR.
My previous PR was 39:27 and yesterday I finished in 35:37! I was so excited. It was such a rush. What a great feeling! And I felt good for hours after the run, very calm and content.